"Nothing will work unless you do." - Maya Angelou

I'm on my lunch break at work, eating my sandwich and potato chips when this thought pops into my head. I need to go on a diet..... How rude, right? And I continued to eat my potato chips. A good friend of mine has participated in the Whole 30 diet and has said really great things about it. So, I looked it up. I thought this diet was about eating "from the ground" like in Jesus times. Turns out, there's a lot of things you can't eat while on this 30 day diet, even things that I would have deemed to be whole and unprocessed. The goal is to eat more vegetables, and things that don't have an ingredient list. Seems pretty simple right? Wrong. You can't have dairy. You can't have too many fruits because they have sugars and you can't have added sugars, real or artificial. You can't have grains or legumes. And the most important one of all, you can't have baked goods or junk food.

Ever since my miscarriage, I have let myself go. Granted, I had a pretty viable excuse, but I should not be eating everything in sight. It's just not healthy. Food has been my comfort food for far too long and I think it is time to let it go. Needless to say, I have put on a few pounds in the last four months and I'm starting to feel it. My body aches, my stomach is always a mess. I'm getting headaches, and I am always way more tired than I should be. My energy level is just not there anymore. I need my energy to get through the long days teaching 36 four year old's.

After researching the WHOLE 30 diet, it sounds really great but do I really need to go that far? (I am now eating a delicious m&m cookie from one of my student's). I'm pretty sure if I really wanted to, I can make better food choices and eliminate all the crap food that I consume every day. It would be pretty easy to go back to how I was eating when I was pregnant, cutting out the majority of all bad stuff from my diet. I was eating healthy because I knew I was growing a human inside of me, and I wanted to make good choices-- but now that I'm no longer pregnant, shouldn't I continue taking care of myself instead of "feeding" into my depression which only makes me feel worse?

So rather than doing the whole 30 diet, because really that's a crazy diet and one I'm not sure I wanna tackle right now-- I'm going to start by just eating right. Maybe cut out junk food, eat more fruits and vegetables, eat less breads, less sugars and see where that takes me. But not today.... I really enjoyed my cookie and might have another one. And probably not tomorrow because we have a concert to go to and are eating out for dinner. And probably not Friday because we are going out of town... So, I'll get back to you and let you know when it happens.